It is OK to be uncomfortable and not be in control of your circumstances. In fact, I believe the Lord can teach us the most in those scenarios because we are more inclined to lean on Him.
Today we spent the day at a local Christian school helping out in classrooms and working on English skills with the students. I’ll be honest, I was extremely out of my comfort zone at the school, especially with the elementary age kids. I am in my comfort zone when I’m able to either play, or be conversational, and I couldn’t really do either of those things with Polish elementary kids who don’t speak English very well. It’s safe to say I was uncomfortable, and at first I hated it, but then I met a little girl named Rayna in the second grade class. She is one of the sweetest bundles of joy you will ever meet. She was one of the only kids that spoke English in the classroom so naturally, she was my safety net.
In my discomfort, I began to realize that the Lord was trying to teach me something: It is OK to be uncomfortable and not be in control of your circumstances. In fact, I believe the Lord can teach us the most in those scenarios because we are more inclined to lean on Him. As I sat in that classroom with sweet little Rayna, we began to play a riveting game of Hangman, which I won of course, and I noticed that other kids started to join in. We began to smile and laugh as we continued the game. In that moment, I experienced a sense of child-like joy that I haven’t felt in a very long time. I lost total control of myself as this happiness took over.
I wonder if that’s how Jesus felt when He would sit with little kids. I bet Jesus loved the change of pace that hanging out with kids brought because they don’t care. They don’t judge. They quickly forgive. They love to smile. They are JOYFUL. Sweet Rayna was no different. It’s so simple, yet I think it’s something that adults forget about.
I am a child of God, but I find myself caring way too much about myself. I find myself making assumptions and judging people way too quickly. I find myself holding grudges against people for stupid reasons. I find myself lacking joy a lot of the time. Today, some truth clicked in me: Sometimes we have to get uncomfortable and lose control to experience pure joy.
What started out as a day I was dreading became my most joyful day of this trip so far. If you don’t hear anything else, hear this: Let’s stop taking ourselves too seriously, and live with the child-like joy that sweet Rayna showed me today. I promise you won’t regret it.